“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”

So after an interesting trip to the tattoo parlor, I've emerged beautifully scarred.



I got these tattoos as a reminder. To live and to love. Because we often times get so caught up in the groove of just existing, that we forget to live. And we are sometimes so hardened by experience we forget to show love. My grandmother had breast cancer, she's a survivor. And after my lump scare last year, I wanted to forever acknowledge the fact that people die every day of this disease, and it is imperative that we find a cure(hence the pink ribbon). Back in College I was involved with a Domestic abuse awareness campaign. The white ribbon was our symbol. Its important to be aware of the many types of abuse out there, and that they are all harmful.



I'm so blessed to be living, loved, and have the right to express myself freely.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!
And to all a good night.

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Foot Cleavage

So, watching one of those stupid reality shows about "What not to Wear" or some fuey like that (you know the ones where you just zone out and turn off your brain) I heard her say 'Foot Cleavage' (and immediately I snapped out of my zombie state) and I was like "WHAT?!" And started giggling at the thought.

Hehe,

Foot cleavage.

It looks like little boobies.

So I took a pic of my cleavage today for everyone's enjoyment ;)



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i miss my mama

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Better Sorry than Safe

I have tried to live my life with the motto of "Better Sorry than Safe" or "No regrets". I have always thought that there is nothing worse than to think back on something and wonder what could have happened. I try to 'do'. I'm a doer. Especially if someone tells me I can't do something. Don't get me wrong, I'm just like every other warm blooded american that has a healthy 'will to live' complex. But 'living' is more to me than just breathing and going day by day in relative comfort. You need to get out of that comfort zone. And for me, its difficult most days. I am considerably shy, and I have that lazy gene in me that would rather sit at home and watch tv than be outside and getting into trouble. But I force myself. And in the end I feel like it was worth it....most days....
And I am extremely bad at continuing to do things that I am not naturally good at. Things I have to learn to get proficient.

I really want to learn a martial art. Jen and I have been talking about it for months. But I keep getting in this slump.
It will be hard.
It will be humiliating at times (since we will be in a kids class, probably with parents around)
It will be physically demanding, and time consuming.

Deep down though, I think it would be an amazing experience. One that I could share with my great friend.

I just have to force myself to do it. Get off my ass and do something worthwhile.
Just do it Melody.
Just do it.


Hehe.
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The Ideal Woman

When did society's image of women get so skewed?

Today on the morning news there was a story about a Ralph Lauren model who was fired for being too fat.
They interviewed her and she said she had no idea why she was fired. She was hired about 10 years ago at the age of 15 and she was about 5'11", 119 lbs! To those who don't know, that is probably about a size 4. Today she is 120lbs. But now she is considered too large.

Large...at 120 lbs....

Oh lord, I think I might have a fit.

Back in the day women with a little meat on their bones were considered the most beautiful women.

Take Botticelli for instance. He painted some of the most iconic images of women ever. They were the opitomy of what was considered feminine.



I see a little pooch there, don't you?

And Marilyn Monroe, considered to be one of the sexiest women who ever lived...
a size 10!



WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY THAT WE idolize models who are anorexic skinny bean poles?

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"money isn't everything"

I was talking to a good friend today about how i could have (maybe) made more money if i had pursued a career in singing, instead of doing bill of material editing in pryor, ok. He made the comment that 'money isn't everything.' Now i know he wasn't saying this to chastise me, but just to make his point that that's not what's really important in life. Which i completely agree with. Which brings me to my point: How come my wealthier friends always say things like that? It doesn't really make me mad, but i do feel like issuing a gentle reminder to those who have been financially blessed: that while money may not be everything, it sure makes life a whole hell of a lot easier! People who worry about paying all your bills each month will be able to understand this.

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reveal thyself, coward

the worst thing about being talked about by someone else is when you don't know exactly who said the gossip. it's like having a faceless enemy, and the only thing you can do is keep living your life the best way you know how, and pray others won't judge you for it or misconstrue something perfectly innocent and harmless. it's interesting to me how relationships can be destroyed so easily on hearsay. of course, if that's all it takes to destroy a relationship, then i guess there wasn't much to it in the first place. interesting conclusion...
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